i am an idiot. although i already know that, it never hurts to remind myself every now an then about that fact. you, the reader, also have the license to tell me that. don't worry, i won't take it against you if ever you meet me and tell it to my face. i even strongly encourage you to do that. heheheh...

anyway, i know that waiting is a bitch, and she's right in telling me that it wouldn't be fair to me to wait for nothing. so why am i still pining for her? why do i still ask her out? why do i still spend time with her? (say it with me now!) why? 'coz i'm a freaking idiot! hoping against hope, keeping that small flicker of light alive...

nah, i'm not doing that anymore... i'm actually moving on with my life. i've already accepted the fact that we can only be friends, coz that's all she can offer. no sense in wasting my time and hers by hoping for something more. i'm actually making a conscious effort to remind myself na wag nang maging makulit.

/me pats myself on teh back for teh effort

as beverly knight sang some time ago: ""shoudla, woulda, coulda" are the last words of a fool." i think it's about time that i stopped being a fool. don't you think so too?