yea, in a nutshell, what the title says.

for those of you who _really_ know me, i rarely talk about it. but there are just some days when it makes it's presence felt that you simply can't ignore it. and once i start dwelling on it, it's the beginning of a downward spiral of negative emotions.

in a few months, i'll have spent 5 years on this current job of mine. sure, i've ranted and raved about this job for quite some time now, and hints of getting another job have come and gone. but with my self-proclaimed "deadline" fast approaching, will i still be here after that? will i be doing the same shit? i know 5 years is a loooong time, but honestly speaking, it didn't feel that long for me. [btw, i've spent 6 years at my previous job] it may be because i'm enjoying myself; or it must be because of the few people that make coming to work all worthwhile; or maybe i don't have any choice at all in this. i dunno...

single at 31. yes, that's me. people are still asking me why i'm not married yet. i usually answer in jest and make jokes about it, but sometimes i _really_ find it annoying and i want to answer back: why do you care? if i get married right now, will it have an effect on your life in some way? would me being married make you happy? but in all seriousness, i do ask the question myself... and all i get from myself is a dumbfounded look and a blank stare. in the first place, how can i get married if i don't have a girlfriend yet!? *wink²*

aagh~ enough of this serious shit... /wrist /fez